Shelli's Ramblings

not for the reasons I’d like for it to be.  :(

So, I’ve been MIA for several weeks…lots of several weeks as a matter of fact.  I’ve been going through some really heavy medical issues, and as much as I like the fact that I’ve lost just about 6 lbs. in the last couple of weeks, it’s definitely not the way I planned it.

Most of you know this already, but for those who don’t, well, I’m a diabetic.  I’ve had Type 2 for years now and was able to control it with meds, diet and nutrition.  When I was weaned off the meds, it was totally just diet and nutrition.  Well, that didn’t last very long. 

During my routine lab work, it was discovered that I have a Kidney Disease.  No bueno.  Of course, it’s due to my diabetes, which has seem to flare up rather rapidly, and nasty.  Hand in hand, my Cholesterol levels have gone through the roof, so, in a nutshell, I’m a hot mess.   I have a prescription for this, a prescription for that, another one for something else, another one for one more thing, etc.  Looks like a freaking drug store.  Not to mention back to using my Glucometer twice a day…..but who likes pricking their finger???  Not me.  Ugh.

I’m stoked that I lost 6 lbs., but I didn’t do any exercising whatsoever during the last two weeks.  In fact, I sat on my fat behind wallowing in my sorrow.  You know..doing the ‘woe is me’ thing after my doctor and the specialist confirmed my Kidney Disease. 

Anywho….hopefully I’ll get out of this funk and just do what I need to do!!

Y’all have a WONDERFUL weekend!!! 

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I got up super early this morning and did some Cardio.  Finally!  I’ve been slacking off the past three weeks now, and kept telling myself “there’s always tomorrow” without really doing anything the next day.

I’ve been stressed the past couple of weeks and have had so much on my mind that I just pretty much ‘gave up’ on a lot of things.  

I don’t know what motivated me this morning to get into it, or what lit a fire under my ass, however, I woke up this morning with an adrenaline rush!!  20 minutes of Cardio with intentions of doing more this afternoon!  

I’m going to take this Biggest Loser challenge I’m participating in with several of my fellow DW Brides to the next level!!  I may not lose as much weight as others, however, it’s motivating me to get off my ass….. I have three more weeks to do what I can!!  As long as I lose at least a couple of pounds, I’ll be okay with it.  

So….off to clean and then go meet my honey for lunch at his work.  Ahhh… I love Target!!  :)

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Epic fail.  I started this Challenge last Friday weighing in at 147.  I hit it hard the first couple of days and was doing extremely well eating wise.  Then…it happened.  I lost motivation.  Although I stayed within my maintenance calories (1200) every.single.day, I wasn’t eating right.  I need to re-focus and find some ways to keep motivated throughout not only this BL Challenge, but throughout my entire weight loss journey period!  

When I first re-started my quest to lose some weight and inches, I weighed 149.5, and in the first week, I lost 2.5 lbs, and I knew losing 19.5 lbs. wasn’t gonna be easy, but I know I can do it if I put my mind to it!  My realistic goal is to lose 14.5 lbs. total, but my ultimate goal is to get down to 130.  Below if I can because look:

According to the above….. weighing between 110 and 137 is in the HEALTHY range for me based on my height and age.  So, I’m shooting for 130, however, 110 would be AMAZINGLY AWESOME!! Fat chance of that happening though.  

I’m DOING THIS!!!  

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Tomorrow is my weigh in day for the Biggest Loser Challenge I’m participating in with 15 other married Destination Wedding brides.  Last week was our first weigh in, and I’m hoping I see a number on the scale SMALLER than what I saw last week. *Finger’s crossed*

All in all, this week started out awesome!!  Then the last two days….I kinda faltered. I don’t know what it is.  I’m just lost motivation.  The weekend is upon us and I have a HUGE Vendor Event I’m participating in on Saturday, as well as 8 dozen cupcakes and a 10’ round birthday cake covered in Fondant, decorated with Purple Roses I have to do for clients.  All for Saturday.  

Needless to say, my tomorrow (Friday) will be nothing but baking, and candy making. All.Day.  This means, I’m going to be so busy, I know for a fact I won’t be able to eat correctly.  Ugh.  Thankfully I’m not the least bit interested in eating any of the sweets I’m making.  I DON’T LIKE SWEETS.

So, on that note, I’m going to bed hoping to wake up tomorrow a pound or two lighter than I was last Friday.  :)  Till then….. 

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I ran for a little bit this morning.  I got motivated.  Got dressed - you know, in cute running shorts, a long sleeve t-shirt, donned my sneakers which I haven’t worn in quite some time now because I live in flip flops year round.  And I ran.  Ugh.  

I ran for perhaps 5 minutes at first then wanted to give up….but I pushed on…all the while my left foot/shin area started to give me pain.  10 minutes into my run I was THIS CLOSE to just stopping, but I was bent hell on going further.  5 minutes later as my lungs felt like they were on fire and my leg had this shooting pain from my ankle up to my knee I finally decided to stop.  So I walked the rest of the way.  At first a slow pace, but then I picked it up once my lungs felt half way normal again.  

What the hell was I thinking?  Going out gung ho like that?  Ugh.  Never again.  I have realized that I can’t run because of my leg.  I just recently was able to get rid of the crutches…..then the walking boot…. and I think running is just too much.  I don’t think I’ll be able to run even in the future.  That shooting pain was too unbearable.

So, I’ll stick to walking and doing cardio that doesn’t require running of any kind.  :)

But…for today…..

I ran!!!!

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I always ‘forget’ to eat.  Or more so that I get so caught up in what I’m doing, I don’t eat.  I almost never, ever eat breakfast, and more often than not, by the time I think about eating, it’s after lunch time already!!

People say ‘How can you forget to eat?’, and I guess they’re right to a certain extent.  More often than not, I simply am not hungry in the morning so I just don’t eat.  I know it’s not healthy and I’m not going to lose weight by skipping meals, so I need to be disciplined enough to eat something.  

I went to Target (my favorite place in the whole wide world to shop) and I bought the Market Pantry (Target Brand) Weight Loss Shake.  I got the French Vanilla flavor, and seriously….it smells horrible to me.  It tastes okay, but the smell reminds me of my mother.  I mean, before she passed away, she was having to be tube fed Ensure or Boost, and the Weight Loss Shake smells exactly like that!  So, I sucked it up today and drank my very first one.  I wasn’t hungry by any means, but I knew I had to get some calories in me in order for me to see some results in the end of this journey.

Again…come lunch time, I simply wasn’t hungry.  However, since I went to have lunch with my husband, I ate a teeny tiny portion of left over Lasagna from last night’s dinner.  It was just a sliver of a serving, but it was something.  Of course, I topped it off with a Caramel Frappucinno from Starbucks.  IT WAS THE NON-FAT, SKINNY type, which doesn’t taste the same, but it was only 110 calories.

I know, I know…I need to lay off the Starbucks and the late evening popcorn snack, but I’m taking baby steps.  :)

Again….tomorrow is a new day so we’ll see how it goes!!  

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So, a few (15 of us) DW Marrieds decided on a friendly Weight Loss Challenge. Straight across the board.  We all donated $20 to the pot and from June 3rd thru July 29th whoever loses the most weight, percentage wise, wins the big shebang in the end!!!

I actually re-started my weight loss journey a few weeks prior to getting in on this BL Challenge, only because of this:

Do you see what it says?  It says I’m overweight.  Almost Obese actually.  So yeah.  I started keeping track of my calorie intake as well as my exercise goals thru an awesome on-line Website called ‘My Fitness Pal’.  It’s a wonderful help and I absolutely love it!  I lost about 5 lbs. last year while I was faithfully tracking and then I just simply stopped doing it one day.  This time around, I’m going to be disciplined enough to continue on….beyond our BL Challenge as well!!

My Fitness Pal has a great support system and lots of members who provide the much needed motivation!  Their food data base is ENORMOUS as well as their exercise data base!!

My goals are to lose at *least* 19.5 lbs. total, but I really, really, wanna lose the inches!!!  I’m not liking the fact that my jeans are getting really tight and I look like I have a huge pooch!  It’s very noticeable in pictures!  Here’s a recent one from last week….tell me you can’t see my big ‘ole pooch sticking out!!  (I’m the one officiating).

Seriously…..when I saw the pictures from the wedding (again, which was just last Saturday), I about flipped.  Ugh…

I knew it was time I step up my weight loss journey!  And so it continues…….

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